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Daily Meditation: 3/6

“Ruins” I have no idea if that is actually what this picture is called, or who the artist is, or even where I first acquired this image. What I see is a woman, seemingly emerging from the wood of the structure. It is as if she is the spirit of the place, looking to move on, but unable to — …Continue reading →

MDMS: My Gratitude List

I am grateful: For my sweetie, who makes it all worthwhile For my therapists, who helped me make sense of it For my friends, who love me for all my flaws For my job, which has turned into a career For my secret project – more to be revealed in the future For my dog, because it is incredibly hard …Continue reading →

MDMS: Triggers

The biggest trigger – perhaps the only one – is (ironically) feeling poor. If I start to get worried about my financial status, feeling like there isn’t enough to do what I want to do – I begin to get slipshod with the finances. I buy things from my wish list. I decide to buy something new. It is as …Continue reading →

MDMS: 5 Things Rich People Do

Live in a new place with the seasons (natural or social) Acquire a high level of education at an outstanding institution Pay other people to take care of the irritations of daily life Surround themselves with beauty (objects & people) Create an environment/culture of health (cook, personal care such as massages, long time doctor)

MDMS: Five Other Lives

In another lifetime, I would be/ could be these things instead of what I am: Full time writer. Full time teacher of the sacred. Farmer. Dog breeder. Courtesan.

MDMS: What Values are Important to Me?

Honesty. This doesn’t mean over-sharing or telling all. It is as much about knowing oneself as it is about how you deal with others. Respect. Treat others as you would be treated. Responsibility. Own your own shit, and fix the mistakes you make, to the best of your ability.

MDMS: Visualizing Myself With Everything I Need

Me with everything I need  . . . looks a lot like me now. I have a wonderful partner; my medical care is covered; my house is not only functional, but beautiful; I have enough to buy what I want, even if its frivolous.  If this continues, I will continue to have all I need.

MDMS: Things I Love To Do (and what they cost)

Dance (this is theoretical) $10 Sing $0 Movies $3.50-$21/mo Read $0 Needlepoint $0 Make books $3 Sewing $0 Cooking – cost of ingredients Teaching $0 Museum $15 Pike Place $0 Travel – expensive, and variable Dinner with friends – if out, $50, if in — cost of ingredients Concerts — $50 or more Make love $0

MDMS: Things I Like Doing That Cost Less Than $20

Read (yay for the library) Watch movies (Netflix, our DVD library, one local theater has older movies for $3.50 all day, another has 1st run movies for $6 before noon) Needlepoint (I have enough projects to complete that will take me until I die) Make books (I have all of the supplies, just need to buy glue occasionally) Sewing (although …Continue reading →

MDMS: 5 Positive Traits About Myself

I am, generally-speaking, a positive person. My current financial difficulties notwithstanding, I am mostly confident that I am making good decisions about my life, living with honesty, compassion, and a high level of personal responsibility. I am what you see: I don’t spend a lot of time trying to hide or change my personality to conform to some external reality. …Continue reading →