and you know what that means . . .
(visual is fine, but the lyrics are definitely NSFW)
for Daystar š
It’s the First of May
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Category Archives: Dear Diary
Failure
Failure has been a theme in my life for several months now, and Iāve been thinking about it a lot. At first glance failure and success are opposites: to fail is to not succeed and success is an absence of failure. In my ruminations, however, Iāve come to understand that while they may be polarized, more often they are intertwined in a complex relationship.
Me = Super Busy
Mercury retrograde is really playing a nasty game with me right now. I worked 70+ hours last week, and will be very focused today through Wed.
Just so you know, I’m fine, just *VERY* busy.
catching up on this n that
Back in early March, J. and I went down to Marina del Rey –the Venice Beach area of Los Angeles — for another working vacation. He’d be working, I’d be taking another (much needed) vacation, complete with personal training, long walks to the beach and along the beach, and some spa time.
That was the plan.
I forgot to mention
that I was also scheduled for an MRI yesterday.
It didnāt go so well.
The MRI went badly ā I couldnāt finish it. Iād forgotten that they would have to inject me with a dye (for the contrast) and that makes a 15 min process more like 30. Mentally I could deal with that, but then my shoulder started to cramp up and I had waves of pain. . . I was working the relaxation imagery and calm breathing ā¦like nobodyās business, all to no avail.
Moreover, the machine was unable to āfindā a series of images and they had to be redone, so my 15 mins of initial images turned into 30. I could NOT stand it anymore and I pulled the plug on the entire event.
But I still have to do it. Iām wondering if taking a muscle relaxant will help?
In other news, the class was fine. Iām sure youāll be surprised that I was singled out as a leader (āBut youāre so articulate!ā) and have form/joined a study group.
Kind of nervous
Iām kind of nervous. Iām going back to school tonight.
Itās a study prep course for the SPHR exam ā the highest level of certification in the HR world. It only has a 54% pass rate, so I am probably not going to pass it the first time around . .. and thatās why Iām taking the night class.
It’s been awhile since I was in school. I hope I remember how to learn.
For My Sweetie: Solsbury Hill
He was just remarking to me today that he’s so glad I turned him on to Peter Gabriel — an artist who just keeps getting better with age. This video, just a few years old, is proof.
Of course, if you want a comparison . . . here’s the original.
Reacting to a Jerk
At dinner last night with friends, the discussion turned to disease and personal responsibility; specifically, when it is just an excuse that you are <fill in the blank> because really youāre just a jerk. One friend was quite upset that she is being demonized for having no tolerance for people who choose alcohol over their family.
Dark days . . .
. .Ā .Ā and long nights.
This is the season in the Pacific Northwest.
The year began with a lot of busy-ness and I haven’t had much of a chance for calmness and reflection.
I finally cleared my desk, only active to-dos there now. A must do within the next couple of days is finalizing the next module for my advanced class. As is appropriate for the season, we’ll be looking inward, doing internal reflection work. Getting to know ourselves better.
On one of my lists there is an interesting discussion going on about ethics and being a lawyer who can do magic. The question was posed “If you knew your client was guilty, how would you proceed with the case?” I’ve been thinking about that in its various permutations (some of which made it into the conversation). First (and these are in no particular order, nor am I lawyer): the role of a lawyer is to make sure the client is treated the same no matter his/her ethnic background, income, education etc.Ā Second, the role of the lawyer is to provide a check against the system — to point out inaccuracies, inconsistencies, and offer counter-arguments/facts relevant to the case. Third, the role of the lawyer is not to judge. We are all innocent until proven guilty (by a jury of our peers).
That said, and this was eloquently said in the group, a magic-wielding lawyer could lose sleep over ‘knowing’ that his/her client was in fact guilty. How to service such a client the same, as well as, an innocent client? (Because, ethically, you must.) By keeping your magic the level of at this statement:
“I hope the jury’s decision is a fair and equitable.”
With that, your energy is directed in a manner that does not harm, or help, your client.
Article in Witches & Pagans #22
Boasting moment . . . I have an article, “Called to Lead” in the current issue of Witches & Pagans magazine (#22).